A Passion for Apathy

I'm having trouble starting an essay that's due on Thursday, so I figured I might be able to fix that by rambling on here for a bit. I don't know if anyone reads this, but I'll pretend people do. All in all, Berkeley is pretty decent so far. I'm definitely enjoying my greater independence, and classes are interesting, though definitely more difficult. It's kind of strange how little high school and all of my AP classes prepared me for this; because I had the same class every day, the teachers could just hold my hand through all the material. Here we cover so much more in 2 or 3 lectures a week, and it's overwhelming. I think I'll be able to keep up though.

Of course, academics aren't the only aspect of college I've contended with. My dorm is kinda shitty. It's all freshman guys, and I have four roommates with one big room and two small bedrooms, the dining hall is inconveniently far away, we have bugs, one of my roommates is a slob, so I'm going to try to transfer to the student cooperative housing next semester. Also I lent my only jacket to a girl and now I'm cold because I haven't had the time to get it back or buy another jacket. I really haven't had much time to do anything, even though I waste plenty of time browsing /fit/ and reddit. Fuck I need to manage time better.

Also I've been having trouble making friends with people here, which I kind of expected based on my experiences in TO. I've made probably two friends, and maybe seven or eight acquaintances. I don't understand how other people do it. After a few days of school, I see big groups of other freshmen having fun and talking and laughing, and people on Facebook are adding tons of new college friends. I go to class, I strike up conversations with people around me, I go to parties, I go to social events, I go to game days, and nothing comes of it. I've been trying to figure out for a while whether the problem lies in other people not being that interested in me because of how I seem to people that don't know me, or whether I just don't feel as connected to people I've just met as they do to me, which alienates them from me because I seem like a disinterested dick.

It really needs to be Thanksgiving break now.